Sexty Times

Before you say anything, I have a lot of chat buddies for one, so good luck trying to deduce who it could be, but I also have permission to share this from the second party involved, who will remain anonymous. This is somewhat explicit language and material..wait..which blog is this?  😉 So I hope you enjoy? Cringe? I forget what the cool kids do these days. Nitpick, probs.

 

 

Me: Whatcha up to today?

Her: I have to get those posters printed so I can try to get some money back from this show. Other than that, I’m leaving tomorrow for a week, so generally trying to get my shit together. You?

Me: Fuckall

Her: I believe that is called sweet fuckall, to be technical about it.

M: ahaha yeah well

H: but umm..

can I tell you that thinking about you makes me wet?

because I just did lol

M: Oh? Ahaha

H: Sorry, wrong message thread….

Just kidding lol

M: Lol you’re great

I like you

H: haha ditto

M: So I don’t get to see you for a week. That sucks. *angry face*

I won’t lie – I’ve definitely been replaying thoughts of fucking you in my head at least 50 times a day

H: yeah its gonna be a long week… what do you think about?

M: Pinning your arms back and torturing/fucking you

H: mmm that sounds like a squirmy good time

how are you gonna torture me?

M: Oh just teasing the hell outta ya

H: oh jesus

M: I mean, I could blindfold you next time and give you some sensory excitement lol

H: oh god you’re going to kill me

I’m sooo susceptable to that stuff

and yum

M: Oh yeah, were gonna have fun with this then. Damnit, you’re making me want to buy toys!

Also, if you ride my dick (and I have a bigger one btw) I would likely cum.

H: oh god yes please. please make me sit on your lap and fuck you

im so wet rn

M: Oh I will. Any chance we could use that stool in your room?

Stools are magical

H: It’s medium solid. We can try, or find something else.

M: Chairs are also great. But neither are necessary. Just…fun.

H: just..fun

M: yeh

What are you doing right now?

H: trying to figure out where I’m going to print stuff and trying not to get distracted by my wet panties,,,,

M: Where are you?

H: home

M: which room?

H: mine

M: oh. standing up? on the bed?

H: on my bed

M: are you sitting or laying down?

H: laying down

M: Good

I want to stand over you and take my belt off

H: me too.. you get this look in your eyes…

M: …make it snap next to your face, then drop my pants.

I’ll noose the belt around your neck and pull your face onto my cock

H: mmm yeah

M: make you suck it til your face is soaked

H: Oh God make me drool

M: Then I’ll bend down to slide the belt off of your neck – biting it while I slide my hands down your face…

your breasts

H: Yes God you’re making me hot

M: Your stomach

up your shirt

I play with your nipples a bit. Massage you. Grab you. Biting, nibbling and kissing your neck.

Licking up behind your ear, my hand slides down to grab the bottom of your shirt. I pull it over your head.

H: I’m holding my breath.

M: Then shove my tongue in your ear

H: ugh yes

M: I’m straddling you

Right hand around your throat and left down your pants. I search between your legs and my hand is drenched. I softly and slowly stroke your clit –

One

Two

Three or four times

H: Mmmmmm I want more

M: Then slide two fingers inside

Thumbing your clit and fingerfucking you while I drag my nails down the back of your neck, placing my hand on your chest. I massage your left breast, fingering you til you’re near ecstasy

then stop everything

H: Nooooooooo

M: I jump off of you

H: I’m gasping for more

M: Ripping your pants down with your panties, I then pull my shirt off and push your legs apart, spread your pussy lips and shove my face in. Licking you up and down. Circling your clit.

I shove my tongue inside and then rub the head of your clit with the very tip.

you cry out a bit, gasping and soft moans

I stop for a moment, staring you down as I reach for your panties behind me. I bring them to my face

H: I’m looking at you with wide open eyes

M: I smell the mess you left behind, while I softly stroke your lips with my fingers. I place two fingers in your mouth and open it, pressing lightly on your tongue. I fold your panties inside out and shove the cum-drenched fabric in your mouth.

I cover your mouth and proceed to finger you

Three fingers this time

Harder

H: Oh god yes

M: Faster

Ramming your g-spot with the lightest strokes on your clit. You’re breathing hard now. I wanna fuck you so bad but my hand keeps its pace – shoving and ramming you with fingers curled as if to pull you towards me and say,

“Cum here.”

H: I’m breathing hard right now

M: I pull the panties out of your mouth, my hand out of your pussy and put three wet fingers in your mouth.

“Suck them clean,” I say.

H: I will

M: I stand up, legs on either side of you, cocking my head.

“Tell me what you want or you won’t get it.”

H: I want you to fuck me. Please. Please put your cock in me. Please. Please.

M: How bad do you want it?

H: I’m soaking wet and humping the air. I look at you with pleading eyes and say “I want it so bad. Please fill me with your cock. Please. I’m begging you. I need it. I want it.” I’m moaning in despair.

M: I drop

Face in the nape of your neck, pinning your arms and rubbing my cock against your clit.

Sliding my body back and forth as you squirm and gasp underneath me. I grab my cock and drive it into you. Big enough to almost hurt but the head pushes through and sits on your cervix. Deep.

H: I like it when you fill me up…

M: you moan with mouth wide open, pupils like saucers, red in the cheeks and shaking. Your quivering makes me so hard I start to gasp, myself. I slowly pull back, then gently thrust.

H: Mmmm I can feel all of you. I’m a puddle.

M: Again

And again

I nibble your neck as I continue to slowly and gently make love to your sweet pussy.

I bite your ear

Then whisper

This might hurt a bit

I lift my head and start humping you fast. Ramming you. Thrusting like an animal – I can’t help but let out a soft growl. My hands leave your arms and end up on a hip and thigh, my fingernails driving into your flesh as I press you closer to me

H: I’m losing my mind

M: Sorry you had things to do, right?

H: AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

M: I’m sorry, I’m distracting you from life. I should leave you be.

H: Nooooooo

M:  😉

Hehehehe

H: So cruel

M: Yeah, actually I’m a horrible person. Sometimes I know how to please.

H: You’re going to kill me by teasing. I can see it coming.

M: How wet are you right now?

H: Oh Jesus. Flooded.

M: Did you touch yourself?

H: Of course. One hand typing.

M: That’s good to hear

H: sgonna be a long week

M: I’d come visit but uh

You busy

And teasing you is fun

H: Oooh you’re bad

M: You know what else is fun?

H: What?

M: Watching you beg.

H: I like begging for it

M: Hm

H: I like the way you look at me when you can tell I’m desperate

M: Well, if you can afford to have me visit

/want me to..

H: Later on tonight?

M: Beg.

H: Des please come fuck me later. Please! You know my pussy gets so very wet for you. Please come make me cum for you.

M: Tell me what you want

H: I want you to come over and make me beg you. I want you to watch me squirm because I want you so bad. I want you to hold me down and tease me

M: Yeah?

H: Yes

M: I might…

H: Please

Please come and fuck me Des

M: You want daddy to come fill you up?

H: Yes. Badly. I want daddy to make me so full

Please

Please

Please

Please

Please come give me cock

Please, you know I’ll do whatever you want. Please.

M: Well if you want it that bad, I suppose…

H: Yes please…..

*Whimper*

M: Hmm you gonna ride me or do I bend you over and fuck you like a dog?

H: oh I like being fucked like a dog…or a piggy…but I also want to ride you… choices, choices

M: You want to be my dirty little pig?

H: Yes

oink

M: Ok. Perfect.

H: *trembles*

 

What is this?

Why this blog? Well, I’ve got too much garbage floating around in my head for one and secondly I find honesty quite refreshing. This is a blog for people who like to read dirty little secrets, who feel like a freaks of nature, or feel a sense of relief from seeing how stupid someone else can be. These are true stories and ramblings of a 20-something who drinks and fucks way too much. These stories are not necessarily in chronological order and I wish to remain, as well as keep other parties mentioned anonymous.

I remember finding a porno mag for the first time. I might have been 4.5 years old and quickly became fascinated with them. My stepfather had quite the collection – he was probably passing them off as outdated stock for his corner store but let’s be real. The pile of mags started moving around the house to avoid me finding them, but I always did. Anytime I had a few mins in the house alone or could get away with it, I was looking for it and not long after, jerking away in a corner. I felt kinda weird about it but that wasn’t enough to stop me. In fact, I had to share what I was “learning”. Unfortunately that meant more demonstrating and actual doing than showing pictures. It started in daycare, showing off our bits to each other and touching them, cuddling pantless under the blankets so our genitals could touch. Then we got caught. So I tried more in a place I couldn’t get caught – in the woods by my grandmother’s house. By age 5 and 6 I was talking my cousins into getting rimmed and sucked. It wasn’t a tough sell. Eventually we were having sex. And no it wasn’t any good and yes I felt shitty about it but couldn’t stop. I would continue to convince peers that it was a fun thing to do up until age 9 or 10. Then my friends didn’t want to experiment anymore. At least not the human ones.

I was obsessed with genitalia, both mine and other’s. I started finding porn on the internet, choosing my words wisely so it looked as though I stumbled upon it. I found bestiality, videos of animal sex, rape scenarios and bdsm. I encouraged dogs to hump me out of pure curiosity and that quickly came to an end. Then eventually I was humping plushies. My first orgasm was me at 10 years old, humping a giant carnival plush toy in my mother’s office. I’ll never forget the surprise and the rush I got from that. That was clearly what I was chasing this whole time, right?

There’s so much more detail to this that I’m avoiding for the sake of intrigue. Like my unexplained obsession with dogs and feeling like I was one once, or how I have a vagina but always saw myself as a male. I will say that I did eventually go to therapy. Lol I’ve had a lot of therapy, and y’know what folks, when I told them my about my guilt surrounding my cousins and other younger people in my past, they had a tendency to avoid the topic all together. That’s right! Shrugged that shit off saying things like “It’s impossible for a 4 year old to penetrate.” Well she was wrong, but OK doc, way to go into denial for me. Would I ever do this again? No. I have no interest in children. I was also a child at the time and at a stage where one year was a wide gap. Because of guilt surrounding this, I became suicidal. I toyed with the idea earlier on when the activities began, but once I hit puberty and started figuring out what I actually like, I felt like a dirty, worthless, piece of shit scumbag who actually deserved to die. That feeling followed me for years to come, but my obsessions just grew and adopted other habits.

Self harm became my new rush. Mostly cutting. This was 8th grade me. I was no longer living with the stepfather but he made visits often and was molesting me by that time. I kinda didn’t fully realize what he was doing for a while, but I knew something felt wrong. That’s when the therapy began, I came out as bisexual, and the touching became more frequent. I was constantly looking for escape and began finding it through autoerotic asphyxiation. Doing it at home, at school and then finally, that year I had my first stiff drink of Bombay Sapphire gin when I was home alone and eventually passed out. This was so much easier than cutting, and socially acceptable…. sort of. So I’d have a drink, choke myself and jerk off with a knife teasing my skin or a lemon wedge in my mouth. I gotta say it felt like progress.